Personal Reflection Essay

I’m not quite sure if I should say unfortunately, or sadly, or if it is something that I should find neither good nor bad but in the end I am a victim of somebody who follows the norms and trends of society. Although I make my own decisions of how I choose to present myself based off of my own personal preference and style, my image can not be isolated as completely unique to who I am. Seeing what other people are wearing definitely influences my personal aesthetic and shapes what I see as ‘hip’ or ‘in style’. When you look at me I don’t believe people are saying “wow that girl really goes against what a typical college girl wears” or “I’ve never seen anyone dress like that, do their hair and makeup like that, or have adornment such as piercings and tattoos that are completely new and separate from todays norms.” As much as I would want to argue with that and say I came up with my own style myself, independent of everyone else’s, it just wouldn’t be true. With that said, when you look at me you also are looking at many other 20 something year old girls with the same type of style and image. It just so happens whether I like it or not, that what I see around me helps influence what I think is ‘cute’ and ‘hip’. With that said, although how I dress may be similar to other females my age, this does not mean I act how these other girls do. What I mean is that, I believe society creates an idea of what the personality of somebody who dresses in this way is like. I enjoy clothing that is flattering, and can be seen as girly, however I also like mixing these looks with sort of a hipster approach with flannels and converse, a style that has reemerged from older generations. This looks used to be seen as grungy, but today it is looked at as hip. I also have a nose piercing, and I used to have 5 ear piercings. Along with these looks I also enjoy wearing workout clothing because I am athletic.

I do not believe you can always jump to conclusions with peoples personalities based off of their image. It is not fair to say that I myself as a person is not uniquely separate from those around me just because I dress the way I do. Although this may be contradicting what I just said, I believe it is easier to get a feel for somebody’s personal beliefs or values when how they present themselves is completely separate and different from the everyday typical image. For example when somebody is covered with piercings and tattoos and wears all black, we have been subconsciously trained to think this person may be angry or may hate rules and regulations. I feel like these ‘outrageous’ or ‘different’ looks create a stigma of how these people may or may not act.

The core beliefs and values in my family were fairly normal I think. My parents always made me feel like I could express myself in any way that made me happy and I never felt like I had to dress and present myself in a certain way because of them.  I see many other girls who feel like they have to maintain a certain image, because that’s the image that their mothers had. It makes me sad that some parents aren’t comfortable with self-expression in anyway what so ever. For example my father may not personally like tattoos, but he has never made me feel that if I were to get one it wouldn’t be ok. My parents have always supported my choices and taught me to be who ever I want to be. Neither of my parents dress out of the ordinary or customize their bodies, however if I were to choose to do so, it would be a fully supported choice.

The core beliefs and values of my peer community are mixed. Although piercings and tattoos used to be seen as a sort of rebellion against the norms of society, I believe today these decisions are viewed as a lot more normal and acceptable. For example having tattoos and piercings I think is seen as ‘in’ or ‘hip’ nowadays. With that change in image, many more people are making the decision to adorn themselves in these ways. I think these changes have a lot to do with the postmodern approach. Today, more people want to change the status quo and be different.

Adornment Discussion

The first person that I observed was a female. From what I could tell she seemed to be a mix of Hispanic and Caucasian. Immediately I noticed her hair, which hung low past her bottom. This made me think that in her family or possibly in her culture having long hair is seen as beautiful for a woman. This could also be important in her religion, signifying maturity. Or her decision to grow her hair out long may all just be personal preference and what she feels most comfortable in. Something that was poignant to me was the fact that during this scorching hot day she was wearing jeans, close toed shoes, and a long sleeve shirt. I assume by this outfit that she is conservative because of how much she chooses to cover up, especially on a hot day like this. Unfortunately somebody who dresses more ‘conservative’ stands out in a crowd where other girls choose to wear extremely revealing outfits. Both of these choices I believe have everything to do with how you were raised and what kind of values and beliefs your parents have. Although it is hard to tell with her hair covering her face as well as her outfit, I could deter that she looked around 19-20 years of age. As for her emotional condition, I consider these things almost impossible to determine for such a short time observing. For the short time I did observe, she seemed focused and intent on her computer possibly her homework.

The next person I observed was the complete opposite. Instead of covering up, she seemed to take pride in her body. I formed this assertion because of the clothes she wore. She had on a very low cut and revealing shirt which exposed her bra. She also wore shorts that revealed more than what I consider acceptable based off of my own values. Because I have grown up in Portland, I have become comfortable to different styles and choices. However, something that has always made me feel uncomfortable is when women reveal too much of their body. I only think this because I believe women do this because they care more about impressing men than respecting their own bodies. I have developed these beliefs based off of how I was raised. My parents taught me to understand it is not important to degrade my own body for someone else’s benefit. From her appearance it looked like she was also in her 20’s. Something I also noticed was that she looked as if she goes tanning. This is another aspect of her personality that highlights the idea that she may care a lot about her appearance. My assumption is that she may feel overwhelmed by the pressures of college.

The third person that I observed was Male, looked about 22 and appeared to be Indian. Immediately I noticed that he was very outgoing and not afraid to show his personality. He spoke in a ‘feminine’ way and also wore a very tight fit t-shirt with shorts and flip-flops. Because of how society has shaped our viewpoints towards men, I made the assumption that he is gay or maybe bisexual. Seeing people who are open about their sexuality makes me happy. Seeing this also makes me think his parents could have been very supportive of his lifestyle choices, helping him feel comfortable in his own skin. It’s very interesting for me to sort out all of these possibilities in my mind. Although I usually do this without writing it down, I feel like I’ve gained insight by hoping to understand others values and morals solely based off of what I can see and hear.